My story
I’m not sure where to start so I guess I’ll start at the beginning. I have always been addicted to some substance or another since I was 8 years old. I was a full blown alcoholic by the age of 10. By 14 I was using hard drugs and at 17 I went to detox for the first time. I went back home after 10 days and was back to drinking that night because I could “control” my drinking. It didn’t take long for me to be back using drugs. Between 20-24 I had my children and I didn’t use or drink while I was pregnant. But as soon as I could I was drinking and using hard drugs again. In 2010 I broke my hand and shortly after moved to another province where I had a doctor who prescribed me anything I asked for. As a result I had a VERY serious pill addiction that caused me to lose my children and there only way for me to get them back was to quit all drugs as well as drinking. I did what they wanted until the ministry was out of the picture. Back to hard drugs I went and again in 2018 I tried to quit everything. I continued smoking weed as I said it wasn’t a problem for me so why should I quit? It was the longest amount of time I had before I started drinking again in 2021. But it was OK because I could control it, right? Wrong because in 2023 I started smoking dope . Something I swore I would never do. I sold everything I had to support my habit. I lied to people i loved. Cheated people out of anything that would get me money to pay for dope and stole thousands of dollars worth of stuff from every store I went into. I lost 3 years got a criminal record spent 60 days in jail and over dosed in front of my daughter. But I kept saying that my addiction wasn’t ” bad enough” to go to treatment yet. I had lost everything including my self respect. I was homeless living in the bush, but it still wasn’t bad enough because I had a trailer to live it. It finally got bad enough when my boyfriend left me with his drug debts and ran off leaving me completely alone with nothing. So I got into treatment packed my bags and never looked back.
It has been 4 months clean and sober and I am so proud to be in recovery. I live with my daughter in a beautiful apartment and I am beyond happy with how my life looks today. I get to see my family again and I am no longer ashamed to see people. I am able to look in the mirror and Luke the person staring back at me. Recovery is possible no matter how far down you feel you are! It is only possible if you work for it.
Anything easy isn’t worth it and anything worth it isn’t easy!!